What Consists of My Happiness

        Puzzles are made up of pieces that come together to form one big picture. However, there are specific pieces that do not fit. I think of my life as a puzzle. There are certain relationships and things that fit to make me happy but some do not. My happiness comes from what is close to my heart. Dreams, family, friends, love, and most importantly, my relationship with God is very special to me; and shapes my puzzle and my happiness. 

         Going to bed and dreaming at night makes my heart content. When my heart is content, I feel relaxed and comfortable in my own world. Sleeping gives me the ability for me to picture my dreams unfold. There is no gravity. Today, a lot of times we cannot allow ourselves to feel comfortable because so many of us conform to what other people want us to be. It’s something that I do, but it doesn’t make me happy. Some of my dreams consist of a world where there is no hate, racial profiling and death, in the sense of murder. Everyone and everything is just fine. Unfortunately, life doesn’t always work out that way.

         My family and friends are two pieces that always seem to work although there can be challenges. I am very blessed and joyful that I have family apart of me. When I am around my family, I know that they love and will support me no matter what. Like every family, come differences and disagreements. When were fighting or arguing over things that are irrelevant, it does not make me happy. The sound of laughter and all of us coming together to talk about what has been happening makes me feel happy. Friends help to gain a realization of my social ability. I am joyful around them because they keep me light when I feel like life is getting stressful and difficult. There are always enjoyable moments that come along when I am with them. I feel as if I have lost and gained friends over the course of these past two years. But no matter what, I know the ones that will always be with me and in my heart. God put these two pieces in my life for a reason. These two pieces can be difficult. So many changes can happen, but its what makes my life a roller coaster.

        Love and the relationship I have with God are the final pieces that make up my puzzle and heart. Do I love? Yes, my family, friends/specific classmates and God. Though, I do anticipate being in love one day. Sometimes, it can incite pain and hurt. That does not make me happy. Knowing that I can feel love and that its not broken makes me happy, especially with God. God loves me unconditionally, and sometimes I cannot see it but I can feel it. I feel at peace and lively when I know that God is there for me through the good and bad. There are certain times when its hard to trust because nothing has gotten better however, God always finds a way to work everything out and when that happens, I am very excited and happy.

       My puzzle is very fragile, heavy and important in my soul. It is complicated, hard, hindering but brings out the best and makes me stronger by the day. Relating my puzzle to someone else is does not constitute my happiness. If all else fails, I believe in my faith, God will see me through. When I die and go to heaven, I want to have no regrets and pain that we feel occasionally. My relationships, dreams that will hopefully come true and love can be established and sustained in my puzzle that make up my happiness and who I am.